This is so well written and such a good reminder about how we choose to live our lives. I attended Co-Dependants Anonymous for many years and they taught me a word... awful-izing. It's where you take whatever is happening or could happen and imagine the worst. I always thought I was just planning but found I never planned for what if something wonderful occurred, only for the negative possibilities. And I find myself still doing that!! Not anywhere near as much but it was a life long habit that I developed, I thought, to regain control of a life that spiraled out of control. I didn't see it coming, I wasn't prepared and boy, that wasn't ever going to happen again. I am grateful every day that I no longer need to fear the future but find old habits creeping in all too often. Line from a song... the past creeping up the back stairs of my mind. However, I really needed to respond to this because when I find myself caught up in imagining the worst, awful-izing has been replaced with "the slow poison of negative thoughts". I clear my mind with one deep breath, make myself aware of the world outside my mind, and then smile. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. ❤️
This is so well written and such a good reminder about how we choose to live our lives. I attended Co-Dependants Anonymous for many years and they taught me a word... awful-izing. It's where you take whatever is happening or could happen and imagine the worst. I always thought I was just planning but found I never planned for what if something wonderful occurred, only for the negative possibilities. And I find myself still doing that!! Not anywhere near as much but it was a life long habit that I developed, I thought, to regain control of a life that spiraled out of control. I didn't see it coming, I wasn't prepared and boy, that wasn't ever going to happen again. I am grateful every day that I no longer need to fear the future but find old habits creeping in all too often. Line from a song... the past creeping up the back stairs of my mind. However, I really needed to respond to this because when I find myself caught up in imagining the worst, awful-izing has been replaced with "the slow poison of negative thoughts". I clear my mind with one deep breath, make myself aware of the world outside my mind, and then smile. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. ❤️